Abba, I have been too hard on myself
I have been holding on for quite some time
But I guess my burdens have gotten so heavy
That my own bones and muscles betrayed my determined mind
Abba, do not let me drown
In my own pool of sweat, blood and tears
Do not let me sink in the depths of my anxiety
Stop me from the person that I am becoming
Abba, why am I such a dependent person
I have been craving your sweet embrace
You are my only salvation in this chaotic mess
The reservoir of my drying confidence
Abba, society have just condemned my flesh
They pointed on the blossoming rose between my legs
They said that it had grown too accustomed to my skin
That it will eventually leach the redness of my soul
Abba, self-inflicted pain will be my pack of cigarettes
Disguised as a comfortable vice
But will eventually engulf my hopeful layer
Leaving me bare for everyone to see
Abba, They mercilessly killed me on the inside
Poisoning my liver with bittersweet alcohol
Plunging their sinful tongues on my virgin throat
Waking the hatefulness that has been jailed in my ribcage
Abba, I may be weak but your spirit is strong in me
My flesh may fail but I know that my God will never will
And so my weary, burdened self kneeled before my king
Who is ever fair, just and merciful
Abba, as I closed my eyes, I did not see darkness, I saw light
Me, a David is surrounded by worries as big as Goliath
But David did not need to know Goliath's power over him
He is not startled nor frightened for he already knew God's
Abba, I turned my worries into prayers
And you seemed to uphold me with your righteous hand
You reminded me not to conform to the pattern of this world
Instead, I should transform by the renewing of my mind