I was still sitting in the couch, sipping his favorite coffee, listening to his favorite music and enjoying the solitude of the evening.Some memories are like the wind,how hard you try,they seem to surround you always.The novel on the table was still half read and I was still struggling to find unanswered questions.The smiling face of my mother framed on the wall reminded me to get back and face life.
The door bell rang and a smiling face brought me back from my trans.I struggled hard to smile though I didn't like to be trespassed by someone else.But deep down inside I somehow felt I had been waiting for him to visit me.Some people tend to look at the scars you carefully conceal and leave no efforts to heal them,he was the one for me.His constant pestering initially made me go mad but gradually I felt I too had grown accustomed to it.
He came in and switched on the lights, stopped the music and put some fresh wild flowers in the vase next to my bed.This was his daily routine and I enjoyed watching him doing this every day.He came and sat down beside me and before I could utter a word,he hugged me.I felt the warmth in his embrace which I longed for. I sometimes wondered how did he manage to know Everytime what I needed.
The fear of falling for someone had taken a toll on me so much that the mere thought of letting someone in the arena of my periphery,had scared me. I was too comfortable with myself and not to mention I was scared of separation yet again.But he seemed to break the walls I had built around and every time he would come near to me, I wondered what could make people so selfless.I knew what he felt but I didn't care to reciprocate the emotions,but that didn't let him stop his efforts.
He would make every attempt to pamper me and called me beautiful every now and then.His presence was no less than the joy of a full moon night for me.Sometimes I cursed myself for being so insensitive but my heart wasn't ready to bear another pain. That day however something was different.I held his hand and asked-"Why do you do this? Don't make me comfortable around you?" He smiled and said-"That's because sometimes people forget what they deserve and they should be showered with everything beautiful."
I said-"And what if all this just disappears like the dew drops in the bright daylight?" He replied-"Then I wish never to look at the rays of the sun"
Before he left I hugged him and whispered-"I am not ready to Carry a wound again, I might not get some one like you to heal it for me.Trust me I am afraid of promises" He kissed me on my forehead and left silently.
My mind knew what my heart was going through but somehow it wanted to overpower it. I knew what he was for me,but I tried hard to get over his thoughts only in vain.A voice inside me told me to give another chance, while another voice cautioned me of the transitory phase of sentiments.
Days passed by but he didn't come, I somehow grew worried and a constant rush of anxiety seemed to gulp me down.He informed me that he had some important errands to run but somehow I couldn't reconcile to the fact that something more important than me had come his way.I knew I was being foolish and I tried to pacify myself with the fact that I wanted him to be away from me,then why was I craving for his smile,his presence and his care?
Days passed and Every time I heard his voice through the phone,my eyes would shower tears in gallons but I tried hard to not let it overpower my voice.He said he would be back soon,but only I knew without him life seemed to be so colorless.
I was sitting on the couch,the lights were on,some fresh wild flowers adorned my vase, I tried to drown myself in the half read novel.The door bell rang and this time I didn't want to appear foolish by mentally rehearsing the lines I would say or dash to the mirror to settle my hair,as I had done all these days whenever I heard the bell.I got up and opened the door.
The same smiling face hugged me this time.I felt the warmth of the Desert Sun and I felt how much I missed him.
He walked in straight and before I could utter a word,he knelt down,he gave me an envelope and said-"I have left you with no choice than to avail the lifetime membership of this pain healer." My tears didn't rest seeing our name together on the wedding card and before I could respond he said-" I didn't want to promise you the galaxies of happiness but all I can assure you that I will try to fill your life with the brightest rays of sunshine."
I responded to everything with a smile on my face and tears rolling down my eyes, hugging him this time I realized that every encounter isn't meant for separation,some just stay by...