This Is Not For You

I can still feel you beneath my skin
Your warmth stayed with me even when you were away
It was just a slight touch
From the gaps of my thighs
But it sent me shivering down my spine
And I felt it linger in me
Longer than I had expected it to be
Because it was new
It was overwhelming
And I felt free

Here I lay down on the sheets
Silently contemplating as I closed my eyes
I was in love
I knew you were not
We can never be more than who we are now
Then, my senses caught your scent
It was strong
Intoxicating
And I missed you more than ever
And I knew we could be together if we try
We can send sparks through our skins
How else can we not be meant for each other

The bed I lay before,
Now runs wet
Wet from the trickling sweat - or was it my tears?
From the silent screams I made
As I crave for the very same moment
Try me again and again
Mess me up so bad
That I'll forget about who you are
That I'll forget that you're here with me
That I'll forget of all the wrong things I've done
Only to be filled with regrets
As I lay awake by morning
Alone