thougts

One of the most dangerous things on earth are the thoughts. Countless sleepless nights because of them, I was out of focus because of them, I ended up in the wrong path because of them. I’m SCARED because of them. They give me paranoia and I couldn’t sleep. They are making me think negative things. I’m starting to believe in them that’s why I’m always hesitant to move forward. They are preventing me to move on; they are holding me back and at times, I just let them, because most of the time they always tells me that I’m no good, I could never be the one I always wanted to. They always tells me that I’m weak, that I’ll just give up in the midst of moving, that I’ll just fall down and not get up, that I’ll just cry my heart out and tell myself, “it’s time to give up.”

I’m scared to them because I feel like they are controlling me and it’s annoying. They are making me feel inferior, like I can’t stand on my own and I’m afraid to face the day, which is true though, I’m afraid to face the day. I’m afraid because I may encounter things that I’m not expecting and I can’t move on, I may encounter things that will lead me to think new thoughts again and they will invade my mind again and I will never be at peace! I’m afraid! And it’s because of them! Oh, how I wish I could just rid them oh so easily. But I know, it’s never that easy.