To coincidences and final infinities

You will still find me. Somewhere right next to you. Somewhere near you, but, oh! So far.
Every night, shutting yourself away from all the hustle, you will find yourself in our favourite little corner. Reminiscing my presence, mumbling my name, smiling everytime you see my blurred face in your head. You will be there, trying to forget what I made you feel. But trust me, you mustn't do that, for that will only make you remember all those moments that you are trying so hard to forget. It will be like reincarnating the dead. I am that mixture of warmth and loneliness that you feel every night.

You will find that scarf, hidden deep inside your drawers. The scarf that used to be mine. You will think of throwing it away, but you will never be able to do it. For it was mine. And I was the dearest thing to you. I know you will hold that scarf close to your chest. It will still smell of me. I am that tiny pearl of tear that find its way down your cheek and finally falls on the scarf.

I see that grim smile on your face everytime you re-read our old texts for the millionth time. The suppressed grin when you see my weird ugly selfies. I know you stop at my "I love you"s for a while. I am that mini-heart attack you have everytime you see me online,  hoping to get a text from me just once. I am that strong hurl of emotion you feel when you finally get my message.

Oh! Your eyes still sparkle when you see me walking towards you. I know you want to say a million things. And I do know that you wont. For we 'broke up' and you don't care. But dear 'ex-boyfriend', I am that rudeness that slips away from you everytime I look into your eyes. I am those 'no's you shove away and move forward to kiss me. I am the way you feel after that. I sense the monsters in you going away. I can sense the security, the peace, the contentment...and happiness!

I am that taste that lingers in your tongue after our final goodbye Kiss. I am those steps you count everytime I walk away from you. I know you thought I was just a girl on whom you have a crush on. I know you thought it was just a 'fling'. I know you were confident about 'moving on' very easily when it gets over. But you know what? I am a little crazy and it will drive you crazy as well.

I will make you smile, cry, frown and groan even when I am gone. For you are in love with me and my absence will make you love me some more. I will no longer be your desire, I will be your necessity. I will make you a little insane. For I am insane as well. You will want to hold me back. But dear 'ex boyfriend', can you hold back the wind?
I will make you scribble my name in the pages of your diary. For I promised you a forever. And I, I dont break promises.