To the guy I once loved

To the guy I once loved...

Thank you for breaking my heart. Thank you for teaching me lessons I never thought I'll ever learn. Thank you for breaking my walls and for urging me to put my guards down. Thank you for letting my bottled emotions out. Thank you for making me human, when all this time, I thought I'm invincible. Thank you for making me feel how complicated I am, because it showed that I was never plain and easy.

Thank you for making me feel weak because I thought I was always strong. Thank you for letting me feel true anger, in which I thought I wasn't able of feeling. Thank you for letting me cry and bawl my eyes out when I thought crying was the lowest way of submission. Thank you for hurting me, because it made me know how I would defend myself atleast. Thank you for making me feel those roller coaster emotions, because I always thought I'm in control. Thank you for breaking all of my pretense when I thought I'm all real.

Thank you for the confusion, because it made me realize how sure I could be.
Thank you for letting me drown in my own sea of sadness because it made me appreciate what real happiness was.
Thank you for thinking I am a damsel always in distress, because it showed I can be my own knight.

Thank you for showing me how much I could ever love and what the likes of you could never give. Thank you for making me feel less, because it made me realize there's more to me. Thank you for making me think I'm not good enough, because it made me realize I'm way better. Thank you for leading me on, because it helped me understand that I should never trust that easily. Thank you for making me an almost, because it showed that I always deserve to be the ONE.

Thank you for showing inconsistencies, because it proved what I needed was the entire opposite. Thank you for leaving me shattered, because you made me fix my ownself. Thank you for not loving me the same way, because I have loved myself instead. Thank you for choosing to leave me for another person, because it proved I am strong enough to be alone.

Thank you for saying we're not meant to be, because it made me realize I am fated for someone more worth it. Thank you for spilling me those minute, doubtful feelings, because it taught me never to settle for anything less and temporary.

Thank you for making me feel all the pains and aches, because I was able to gauge my tolerance to such. Thank you for breaking our bond, because it made me realize how I truly value relationships. Thank you for saying I was an overthinker, because it proved that I was never the shallow one.

Thank you for letting me wander and get lost helplessly, because it helped me find my own right way back.

Thank you for being impatient that I've depended on you, because it made me realize I need to patiently face certain things on my own.

Thank you for letting me feel all the jealousy, because it showed how afraid I was of losing people dear to me.

Thank you for considering me as too much, because it showed the likes of you just want the least.

Thank you for initiating changes in me, when I'm too reluctant about it before.

Thank you for making me feel dead because it for made me strive to be more alive.

Thank you for being a great part of my life.

Thank you for making me feel that I'm still a girl, but I am even capable of being a woman.

Thank you as well, for saying goodbye, because now, you made me strong enough to let go.