To the guy I once loved.

To the guy I once loved,

         Now in this part, I will tell you that I am happy now. I am happy that I have let you go even if I am not sure if I really want you to go. At first, I was hesitating to tell you that I don't want to pursue my feelings for you anymore, that I just want us to be friends, but I have seen your eyes. I have read all the thoughts that's running inside of your mind. I can tell that you love her, by just listening to your voice, by just listening how you speak about her. I can see it in your eyes that her actions bothered you. I can see it in your eyes how her actions affected you. I can see the sadness in your eyes when you told me about the guy that he likes. The guy that he wants more than you. I can feel the pain inside of your heart that is screaming about the feelings it has for her. I can sense that you are confused between us two, but you chose to stay by my side because I am here. Because I am just here by your side. I can sense that you are choosing me not because you want me, but because you don't have a choice. 

       That's the time I told myself to stop. To stop entertaining you because I don't want to bother you anymore. I don't want to be your problem anymore. So let me be the one to tell you that I had enough. Let me be the one to erase all the memories we have. Let me be the bad guy in our story. And please tell the people that it's all my fault, please tell the people that I am the one who breaks your heart, that I am the first one to break you, to break all of you. 

       Because of my own ways of ignoring you, because of my own ways of letting you go, I had figured out that I am right. That you love her. That she stole your heart. That from the very beginning, she's the only one whom you want to spend your life with. She's the only one you look up to. And it's fine. 

    Because now I am happy, now I am happy with someone whom I can really trust. With someone whom I can really love. With someone that loves me as much as I love him. With someone that I can get comfortable with. With someone who respects me, who accepts all of my flaws. With someone whom I can spend my life with. 

      Thank you for letting me feel that someone can love me better than you. Thank you for making me let you go because that's what I deserve. Thank you for letting me realize my on worth. Thank you. Because now, I am happy with the man I love that is much more better than you. 

       In this page, my poems are all about you, but as the new chapter of my life opens, it will now close for you.