Thank you for the rollercoaster experience, my life's never been this adventurous without you in it. Thank you because I was able to discover myself more as I listen to the wise words you've spoken. And, thank you because I've been totally changed..for the better.
Those days when I see you smiling and laughing with your boys simply makes me smile too. The days when you'd suddenly come right beside me and talk about nonsense things made me assume something that's never going to happen. I couldn't speak nor think straight when you were that close to me before. Funny how I couldn't even get what you were saying because I was too busy looking at those dazzling eyes, the words you said remained jungled in my head. You'd snap in front of me to bring Earth back to me because I was too obvious to you.
Yes, I know you've known it for a long time. I know you know that I've been staring at you secretly behind the trees, spying on you as you go somewhere else aside school, and the kind of look I'd give to you that I couldn't give to anyone else. I know you know that you were always that special to me. But I also knew you never acknowledged it, because you didn't know how to reject my feelings kindly.
Still, you managed to talk right in front of me like nothing's going on. You managed to tell me pieces of advice that made me know what's right from wrong. You managed to act as best friends with me because you wouldn't want anything to change. You managed to tell to me you always needed me in your life and I hope you know I do too. But, you also managed to stay coward and immature for letting me feel these feelings that's too painful to keep it inside while you're just right beside me.
Later then, you had to keep distance from me because you finally had the girl you've been proudly sharing to me ever since you met her. I'm happy because you didn't act like a coward when you were right beside her. I'm happy because you're happy with her and not with me anymore. And I'm happy because, your life is about to change the way mine has already.
Once again, I, thank you. Thank you for all the care and love as a friend, a best friend. Thank you for forgetting me because now, this might be the chance to do the same to you. They say "Absence makes the heart grow fonder", which indeed, is true. This might be a torture for me today, might as well for tomorrow and for many days to come.. Although my life now is completely in dungeon since you left, I'll look for a certain light, a certain hope that'll help me wake up from this beautiful nightmare. Then I guess, we're better off without each other. Thank you, my best friend.
Loving you forever,
-H