To My Dearest Charley,

I have to admit it's my first time to be in this kind of situation, whereon I have to choose what to do and to be. With you I feel peace,loved and secured, I don't know what else to wish for but such requires a sacrifice.. Either I'd choose you or the people that I am with right now, they don't like you I admit, everything about you seemed so wrong for them when you're with me. But I won't make mistakes such as leaving you for their sake, cause you're worth is far more valuable than theirs.

I wish you'd know, I don't want to do this awful things to you because I know you'd gladly stay even so, because you'll be there by my side even if I keep on pushing you away.. and it makes me feel so guilty, for I was like that once upon a time ago and I know how horrid it is to feel like you're treated in a way you don't deserve to be just because of pointless reasons..

And I have to admit, my mind is just empty right now, my heart aches a little each time I recall the things you did for me and I know how much you deserve to be treated better..

I love you, by God I love you more than I ever did love myself, and I wish you can bear with me in this.. I wish you would, step up with me and still love me even so, because I don't know what I'd do without you in my life, I hope you understand that... though today, we did fought over this again and you become subtle, I wish we can get this over with and continue loving ourselves.. Even if its a bit tough not seeing each other..

You have never escape my thoughts, nor will you in my heart. I know this, for a fact. I wouldn't want to love anyone else, because of you. And I know for certain that some love stories do have a great ending with the same characters at the beginning, and I will do everything for us to be too.

                                                                                                                                                    Love,                                                                     Ashley