To My Highschool Bestfriend Who Found Another Girl

I will never ever forget the day I saw you. It was during my first day in high school and I must admit at first, I didn’t liked you. Looking at you is like watching a storm slowly hitting its target. Deadly. Destructive. Painful. Everyone’s talking about you and I guess I never liked being a bandwagon. I didn’t do the same when other people admired you and watched you from afar. I didn’t care. I never cared. Until one day, we became friends. I didn’t know how did it happened. It just did. Everything happened smoothly. I didn’t imagine myself to spark a conversation with you but what’s most unbelievable is that we became best of friends. I am picky when it comes from choosing my clique. I have standards to follow. Of course, anyone wouldn’t want to be with the least and worst person in the best school year of their life, right? From that moment, I know you are amazing. Not because you became my friend but because you really are.

You let me see your genuine side. And it is rare. It is rare for people to show who they really are and you were not afraid to show me. You were not afraid that I might judge you, backstab you or envy you because you are beautiful. Inside and out. Because a lot of people did. But I know you trust me and you know when to open up to people. You are not easily fooled and you are hard to please. I never thought that I would admire a person because you already have everything and that would really make me frustrated and upset because that’s my dream- to be good enough for everyone. And you happened to be more than anyone could ask for. You are talented, witty, beautiful and all. A hundred and forty characters aren’t enough to describe you as a person. You will always be beyond the boundaries. And people will always strive to reach you because you are a goal. The best part I loved about you is your passion for your family. They are lucky to have you. A person who would do everything for them, see them as an inspiration to do better, who would put them first above anything. They were fortunate to call you their daughter because you are everything a parent could ask for. And I am lucky that I am a part of your life. That I am your bestfriend.

But apparently like seasons, people also change. We grew up and developed a gap between each other. You never told me anymore stories on how your day went, how your exes tried to spark a conversation with you after posting a bomb selfie, how you and your dad fight again, how many guys are showing their affection to you, how many rice you ate after a tiring work out, how happy you are to ace your exams. Everything was gone. It was merely because you found another person to open up to. And it hurts because I thought that I was the only one. That I’ll be the only one. It hurts to question yourself if you are still someone’s best pal, if they would still do the same for you, if they would be there when you need them and if they would still love you the same way you started with.

But I hope she would do everything I did for you. I hope she will always take an eye on you during parties and watch you on your alcohol because you got low tolerance. I hope when you drink so much she will sit by you in the bathroom and pat your back while puking every single thing inside your stomach. I hope she gives you worthy advices on how you should deal with your problems. I hope she stay with you while you face those because I know you can’t do it alone. I hope she is not shy to be with you in public and line for countless of times in buffet tables. I hope she stays with you in the end, I hope she never leaves you the same way your exes did. And I hope, she never makes you experience the same way you did when you replaced me. Because it sucks. A lot. And I know, you’ll be hurt and maybe you can’t take so much pain from that. I hope she’s brave enough to carry all those for you. And when she fails to do so, always remember that you can take a step back from everything and come back from where you started. You can always come back to me. Because regardless of everything, I am still your bestfriend.Always will and always be.