Two

I want to cut myself
I don't want to have a scar on myskin
I want to love myself
I want to hurt myself
I want to release what's in my chest
I hate my head,  I want to love at best
I want to disappear
I want to live up there and here
I want to focus
I want to  cuss

I want to help myself
To destroy myself
To build myself
To get myself back up
To stop these thoughts crashing at each other
To stop the time
To stop
Just stop