Have you ever made an unknown thing your company ??
I did
I remember when I was six
I drew my blanket right to the tip
of my nose and whisper sounds to someone unknown
I talked with it , it responded
I could hear it , I could even repeat what it said
So I lay in there quite and happy with my only bearable company
And then when I grew up I bought a ball and hit it often on the wall.
My unknown friend returned it to me
And so i had a good playtime company
We ended up becoming so many characters
All fake , it was my first and the only actor
who knew what next should my story represent .
And I played and talked
All about my feelings in the dead hall
Usually when my mother went to sleep
I decided to show reality how I could cheat.
At that time ,I had only that one friend who stayed with me in my need.
When I was young I talked a lot with imaginary characters that flocked
Out of my creation
My mind , oh it had a whole new sensation!
How easily i made stories slide
And poems shine
Since the age five
But then after such a long tiring day
I kept quiet outside the play.
Whenever my creative mind went to sleep
My unknown friend left me to grieve
In those moments I stayed quiet
Did not talk much
Or else they would get annoyed
I looked at the walls or out of windows
Lost in my own thoughts
Filled with crazy rift and rows
And sometimes I went blank
Thinking about nothing
No idea , no plan
When my mother tried to initiate a conversation
I turned to only reply
With a yes or no
She said, " What you keep thinking , I would never know "
And wondered how far from her ,this daughter would go.
And sometimes I did not know those answers
I was too much occupied each time
with that imaginary playmate of mine
Or call it the person that was hidden behind
Behind me , within
A human like me with self repressed thoughts and emotions
I do not know how I turned into a machine in motion
And to overcome it ,
At such a tender age
I do not know how I learnt this new idea to engage
A lonely girl
With no friends
I made a friend out of nothing
It may sound crazy or vague
But that is how I learnt to survive and stay
I learnt to
Survive and stay...