Unsaid Thoughts

Is it okay to still hope that we could be together in the future? It may be impossible now but I felt like we'll still have that connection. Knowing that you still like me even though others perceive that I'm just having this illusion. They say I have to move on because you doesn't even care but what if you still care? I still want to ask you things but I guess that's really the end of it. Maybe, my friends are right. Maybe, I should follow their advice but the more I think about it, the more confused I become. I wanted to forget everything because I don't want to feel this agonizing pain. At first, it was alright but as the days passed by, it became a burden to me. It feels like I'm being drastically dragged down in a dark pit losing my own consciousness and felt like dying inside. I smile as if I'm okay but the truth is I'm just putting on that mask to make me feel stronger. Crying always helps but it's tiring and suffocating to the point you just want to be numb from everything. I hope that this pain will be worth it and I hope everything happens for a reason. I may not know it now but someday I'll be able to understand why this is happening to me. So, as of now, I have to continue living, uplift myself and smile through the pain.