Valentine's day

14th February 2017

It was 4 in the morning. She was awake for more than an hour now. Something stopped her from slipping back into sleep, something made her restless, something disturbed her, something made her uneasy. Why? Why was it stopping her? What was it rather? She got up looked around the room. She could faintly see her roommate sleeping, she admired her roommate’s cuteness. It was cold so she pulled up her bed cover. She took her teddy and held it tight, close to her body. Unable to resist it anymore she grabbed her phone and unlocked it, The light from the phone was the only source of light in the room. Her eyes sensitive to this sudden light, shut themselves for a moment. Opening them slowly, she quickly checked her messages. This what it. She was awaiting an important message and there was no sign of one. This had made her sleepless. She thought the screen was frozen so she refreshed it and again and again. There was no sign of a message. Her face fell. All sorts of thoughts came into her head now. Is he ignoring me? Is he really concerned about me? Is his friendship genuine? She thought…… She threw her phone next to the pillow in disappointment. Sliding down into her bed cover she still was not sleepy. Cuddling her teddy and then pushing it away and repeating this seemed to be the only thing she did nowadays. The nights being sleepless, mind being restless and feeling uneasy seemed to be her constant companions these days. It was around 6 o'clock now. She noticed this as the sky was slowly lighting up. She felt like going out of the room. She felt suffocated in the room. Something was choking her in there. She thought of going for a walk. She quickly dressed up and picked up her iPod and was about to leave. She turned around thinking whether to take her phone along or not but she decided against it. She turned around and continued to walk. After all, she was trying to distract herself from thinking about him. She started to listen to her favorite track list and walked around the campus, slowly she walked out of the campus. She walked for a long time now and was tired. She wanted to catch her breath so she sat down on the nearby ledge. She glanced at her iPod. It was 6.55 by then. As she saw the time, she started thinking of him again. She realised that even he might have gotten up by now. Anxious for his reply she headed back to her room. She reached the room and quickly grabbed her phone. No sign of any reply again. It had been 4 days now that he didn’t reply to her messages. She was genuinely concerned for him now. Throwing her phone back onto the bed she headed out to get ready for the classes. After she was done, she went down for breakfast. She wasn’t in a mood to socialize today so, she slowly headed to the quiet table. Though it was something she relished it seemed tasteless to her that day, she reluctantly finished her food. Disposing her plate she moved towards her class. He was still in her thoughts.Why was it so that she was desperate for his reply? She wondered what these feelings were and what did they mean? Was it love? Was it concern? Was it something else? There was no one in the class, she walked up to her usual seat in the second row and slowly was settling in for the class. Her phone started ringing, she quickly pulled it out hoping it was him but it was her dad. She picked it up and started talking to him. Another call came in and she quickly glanced at the screen. It was him. Her face lit up. She quickly ended the call with her dad and answered his call. ‘Hi’ he said. That voice, it comforted her so much. She said ‘Hi’ and fell silent. She was tearing up now; it amazed her. Why was she crying now? He continued, ‘Listen, I am sorry I didn’t reply, I was busy.’ She ‘hmm’ed to this. ‘Just hmm?’ he asked ‘I thought you'd be mad at me and yell at me for not replying’. She was surprised with his accurate prediction about her feelings and reactions. She started crying silently. ‘Hello? Are you there? Are you listening?’ came the voice from other side. She once again ‘Hmm’ed. He noticed it and asked “ Hey….. What happened? Why are you crying?’. She replied with a cracking voice ‘ I was worried for you. I was getting scary thoughts about what might have happened to you’. ‘I am sorry again. I was caught up by some work. Don’t worry I am not getting to leave you in peace so soon. I have to bug you a lot more’ he said. She could hear him smiling on the other end of the line. It made her smile too. Both of them fell silent for few moments. ‘Nidhi’ he said. ‘Ha’ came the reply. “ I think there blossomed another relation between us…. I think...ummm…...I think I am in love with you’ he said. That’s it. All her doubts were cleared, all her questions were answered. She burst out crying. After all, her love had called her. Controlling herself she replied ‘ You think so? I also feel there is something more in store for us. I am not sure if it is love or not. I also feel for you'.. Both of them were overwhelmed with joy. She was on cloud 9, her feelings found a new meaning. Delighted she replied ‘ Listen I have a class now. I’ll call you back after the class. We have to talk. Hope you are free then’.. ‘ ‘Yes surely we will talk about this after your class. I am free all day today. I’ll be waiting for your call. Take care my love’ he said. She chuckled for the last word. She was indeed. Both of them bid adieu for the moment.

Nidhi… She was very happy and content. Her love was true. She was no longer crying. She flashed her brightest smile was blushing to the fullest. She felt beautiful; she felt alive. She felt complete. A new phase of her life was yet to begin. She was in love, in love with the guy she trusted the most. The guy she confided in and the best part was he loved her back. She was truly, madly in love.