I'm so sick of avoiding you, we don't have to love again. You see me walking towards you, you head to the door. why? Tell me why did, why did we
Throw away the love we had?
And tell me why do, why do we love to make it hurt so bad?
after all, we were so emotionally involved in each others lives for so long, if we are not lovers anymore, then we don't have to be enemies either. We loved each other, it was magical. but i hate this avoiding game, awkward moments. we both are still on the same page i guess, still on the edge of something. All we need is a reason to hold on, isn't it? I claimed to be yours once, and so you did. but that was "once" right? then why do people tell me stories of you getting drunk every single night? then why do i hear stories of you crying and getting emotionally messed up at every party you go? why do i see you looking away when I look at you, why do you don't go clubbing with your friends anymore? why don't you smoke? you picked those over me, right? if it hurts, let me tell you it will. it will hurt you, hurt you in a way you'll not be able to stop.
wanna come back to me? want me to hold you again like I did a month ago when you were leaving, when i was begging you to stay. want me to hold your hand, pull you closer, so close that we forget the world, and have our own silence? want me to tell you how much i love you like i did when you were not hearing a single word from me?
we don't have to love again, we don't have to be strangers. we don't have to avoid each other or block each other on social media, or call each other after getting drunk. I know you do, I do too. I do, I'll always will. As long as I live, I'll never not think about you.
imissyou.
we can be lovers again, true love finds its way on its own. or maybe, maybe we can try. try try try, try how to love again. I dont know, what to do, what to say to you. all we can do, is not be enemies.