'It's over'
And a year after it, I'm sitting in silence, looking out of the window, getting this heavy feeling in my chest, wondering how many girls you've loved and left so far, begging myself to stop thinking about you but you're still there, somewhere between the crossroads of the happiest days of my life and the most pain I've ever felt.
You make me realize why people obsess over the past, why they don't let go, why it still hurts when they hear that persons name; its because the person that they lost is irreplaceable, and its the same with me as well, you are irreplaceable for me. There is no one like you and there will never be anyone like you. You are the love of my life and I would never love anyone the way I love you.
At times I wonder why I can't forget you like you forgot me? What's so different about you? Maybe you aren't different but you're magic and how could I forget something so magical. You were too good to be true I guess.
Maybe my mind keeps playing back the memories of you because my heart doesn't want to forget it. Sometimes there is a part which is inside your heart yet its never yours.
And maybe once you love someone you never unlove them, a part of you will forever be in love with them.
I wonder if I ever crossed your mind in all these months, if guilt ever struck your heart and you felt suffocated, if tears ever rolled down your cheeks with shivers running down your spine at the thought of me being with someone else, if you ever wish you could come back to me.
Even after all this pain I don't regret loving you because loving you was the most beautiful feeling that I could have ever experienced and I know it'll never be the same with anyone else.