Will you even catch me?

"Relationships are overrated."

"Love is a big joke."

"I'm not falling for someone again."

I remember saying those words back then. Only back when I still see you as someone impossible to like or even to love.  You are my closest friend. You are someone I can always rely on.  You are the person who has understands what it feels like to be broken. 

We were two broken souls who need to be repaired.  It was just recently when I got my heart broken. My heart hurts everytime I remember how painful it was to be replaced by the person you love for years.  But you were there,  you were there for me to listen every painful thoughts I have in mind.  You were there to remind that I am worth something more.  You were there to remind me that I deserve someone better than him. 

God knows how thankful I am meeting someone like you.  God knows how thankful I am to have a friend like you.  

And then just recently I noticed how my mood changes in unexpected times.  Whenever you are beside me,  I always feel light and happy.  Whenever we exchange messages in the phone I constantly have a smile plastered on my face.  Whenever my phone lights up because of your messages, I always feel giddy.  Maybe It's because I missed having someone talk to me about how my day was or how wonderful something is; or maybe just maybe I already like you.  And whenever you don't reply to my messages I would suddenly wonder why.  It hurts.  It makes me remember how my past love treated me that way.  How he make me feels so worthless.  Am i worthless?  Or am i just stupid to think that someone will like me more than I like that person back.  I'm just so tired but I just can't stop my heart for feeling. 

I think i'm falling. Will you even catch me?