To My Imperfect Mom

Dear Mom,

I am sorry for everything, for innocence and ignorance blinded me before.

I am sorry for not having been able to somehow equally repay what you've bestowed, for I was full of myself --------and I admit I was selfish.

I am sorry for not caring to know that you've consumed yourself just to nourish me.

I am sorry for not bothering to notice that you've stooped yourself just to elate me.

I am sorry for not appreciating your best art for I was wanting more.

I am sorry for not looking at my back when you were there watching me grow. 

I am sorry for selfishly wanting all your stream to just to fill myself. 

I am sorry for not appreciating your best. 

I am sorry for not understanding your personality when you've dealt with mine.

I'm sorry for questioning your self worth in order to prove mine. 

I am sorry for a lot of things, I do.

But now, maturity taught me a lot. 

It made me fathom more that you were the one who laid all of my stepping stones. 

I'm grateful for the education you provided me despite your struggles for it made me learned ------ it made me conscious.

Thank you for being my mom. 

Thank you for being steel strong when I was melting. 

Thank you for being my shield when I was vulnerable. 

Thank you for letting your stomach churn just to feed me. 

Thank you for mending my wings when they got broken. 

Thank you for accepting me even if I was a failure somehow. 

Thank you for inspiring me to not give up just because i stumbled once or twice.

Thank you for being there when everyone else left.

Thank you for letting your guard down just to secure me.

Thank you for the big leap you took outside your comfort zone to somehow adapt to my inconsistency.

Thank you for taking my calls even at twilight just to comfort me for I was scared.

Thank you for your presence because your presence itself inspires me.

I love you mom, I really do.

You may not be the best mom on earth but I know you're a great one.

We're both fickle, I must have gotten it from you.

Now that I'm a woman, I salute you.

You are my wonder woman and will forever be.