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I don't really know where to start,
Should this be a poem?
a story perhaps? scratch that I'm not good at making those;
I don't really know what you call this but here i am writing my feelings and thoughts into this.
I'm not good at making sentence structures or making very difficult words and phrases and all, i don't know where to put the coma or the period or even the apostrophe like my friend does when she's doing our creative writing on writing fiction stories.
I'm not really good in making words into life, as much as I wanted to, my works feels like trash somehow. wanting to let the world feel what you felt through words but you can't seem to find the proper words or beautiful words because you're simple.
I like -- love writing poems.
I love words.
I love how books feels like home.
how they make you go into another world and see what the characters are seeing, feel what they are feeling.
I love writing.
how it changed my life, how it saved me from the ends of the earth.
I'm not good at dancing,
like they do.
when they dance they seem so beautiful and cool,
but when i try to dance why do I see someone who's trying hard to dance well?
Whim says " You're a good dancer boo !"
but why do I feel so awkward and unconfident while dancing?
that feeling if you make one mistake the whole world stops and stares at you and judge you.
people would gossip and make fun of you.
" you shouldn't be dancing at all ya know?"
" you're too stiff, you're trying so hard."
" practice for eternity?"
I feel free when dancing
I want to be good at dancing
I want to be confident in dancing,
believe me I really do.
but like in my passion for poetry,
wanting the world to know, wanting them to feel my poems
I'm scared.
Im alwyas scared to take the risk,
before the world would hate or judge me
I took a step ahead and hated myself and judged myself before they even did.
Like, criticising myself before others do,
knowing what I did wrong and scold myself before they do.
say no, before they do.
because I'm afraid
I don't know if im making progress on " taking risks before you regret it" kind of motto.
i dont know where im going with this
im sorry if i wasted your time.
im not good as my ates here in writing so many beautiful poems and stories
ive beginning to doubt myself too in poetry.
i just cant seem to find something good in me or something special.
I want to write, but I'm scared
I want to write ,but i think its too cliché
i want to write, but i think this is too simple
I want to write , but its too cheesy
i want to write, but it doesn't make sense
I want to write, but im afraid.
I want to do lot of things but i think im stoping myself from doing so.
answering my questions before others do in a hurtful manner.
getting ahead of others before they hurt you.
I don't even know if you who is reading this would care anyway bc nothing here is special
These are my thoughts and I dont know what got into my head to writing this and to show it to the world, not that the world would pay attention to this anyway.
Im lost in the Forest of Fear
what should I do to survive?
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Updated on September 08, 2018
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