A Love that never happened!

Her 'Bye' was a 'goodbye' this time, she couldn't tell you that!

She couldn't tell you....

That packing all her luggage was a purposeful conscious effort this time!

That she doesn't want to keep telling herself that it'll be over one day!

That she cares for you but she has started to love herself more now!

That she feels like breaking those unseen chains around her neck.

That she wants to stop caring slowly and completely!

That she wants you to change but it's unfair on her part to expect it.

That even then she cannot give up on expecting.

That it's not just you who's getting hurt but she as well. That she's still searching. 

That she wish you two could be 'strangers again'.

That every time she hurts you it hurts her as well and makes her cry from inside but can't help.

That she can see you 'drifting away' already.

That she doesn't like you mentioning about someone else and not discussing about you two. That your priority is not 'we'.

That she doesn't feel the love anymore. That even after so many years you could not grab her confidence let alone her heart.

That she doesn't want to know about how she feels anymore. That she still feels 'lost'.

That your shoulders are not strong enough for her. That she still don't see you standing besides her. 

That she can never show you her weak side. That she always feels judged around you.

That your words are strong enough to kill her, slowly from inside.

That she's  a difficult person to deal with. That maybe you both are difficult people to deal with.

That she feels left alone with herself when she's around you. That she feels worked out for no reason. 

That she wanted to feel like home but she couldn't. 

That she wanted to share her secrets but couldn't.....

And because she wanted to say all this she had to leave this time with whole of herself, without any letter or explanation.

Because she wants to stop caring this time.

Because she wants you to feel her goodbye this time.