Anxiety

I don't know if i know,

what keeps me back.

I just want to let it go.

let it go,

like a loose flying kite in the sky.

My fingertips demand sleep,

when my body demands to release pain.

I'm stuck.

I can feel every emotion travelling inside my whole body,

from one end to the other,

burning all the way through.

I'm needy,

I can't handle this roller coaster alone.

I'm a crab,

I would rather loose a claw than letting something go.

But wait,

There's still a hope.

I'm full of life,

nothing can ruin me.

It's just a matter of time.

Maybe a minute will revive me.

Or, Bury me.

I just can't trust my beliefs.

At times, I cannot recognize myself.

Always waiting,

for nothing,

for shelter,

for security,

for another stumble.