"Benighted Soul"

When my father’s tears

Tell so much more than his words

This is what I fear most

To feel pain and weakness surge into my bones

Would I want to know the negative?

Or would I rather stay unsure?

Like a man who has a problem

And would solve for the missing x

Or like a kid running

With no worries nor fear of falling

“I love you, my child,” she’d always say.

“I love you too,” I never said.

If I knew then what I knew now

Would I trade everything I have?

To let the future be kept at bay

Just to relive the moment

Without taking a second for granted

Time heals everything, is a lie

‘Cause it gets more painful by and by

Scars causing great tribulation

That torments more than a fresh wound

Made me grow taller, bigger than before

But the child in me

Never left my poor benighted soul

Asking for one last time

To be held in her mother’s embrace

“I love you,” the last thing she said.

“I love you most,” I should’ve said.