Confront 12.07.2021

So now that I missed you so much, shed tears for you because you were ignoring me, was upset that you weren't talking to me, I decided to confront you. I was trying to motivate myself watching YouTube videos and trying to console my soul that it's okay if you're not talking. Since I have already faced a similar situation, the pain was not that deep. I knew long time back that I was falling for you, tried to keep myself busy, but HE had different plans I guess.
Now that I am so far away from you, almost 6000 kilometres away, I started to miss you terribly; this got exaggerated when you started avoiding me.
From the very beginning, I was true to you, I was trying not to make any mistakes. Infact I told you to say if I made you feel bad unintentionally. I think I also told sorry whenever I had felt that my words might have hurt you.
Anyways, now that my soul is crying out loud, after almost months of 'not talking', I decided to confront you. So I asked you what's wrong.
But honestly, I didn't expect an answer like,  " I am not answerable to anyone, when I would talk, when I shouldn't".

Stunned!!
I was shocked. Obviously, you aren't not answerable to anyone. But was my answer wrong? That I told you that sometimes you might be answerable to those with whom you connect emotionally?
Was I wrong love?
I appreciate your way of thinking something like this. Also I honour you to spend time over a video call for hour. Although, it was an everyday story for us for a year almost :) Strange eh? You telling me this was really shocking because we used to talk for hours over video call!

I feel you took me for granted.
I am thankful to the Almighty that HE could help me speak out today and confess my love for you; Yes I love you. It has been growing since months. Tried to move away but still couldn't. Somewhere inside I was feeling numb, thinking maybe I could have told you.
And I knew that you were expecting something like this seeing my behavior, and hoping not to be this confession. You are dating someone. It's good to know.
I wish you all the best love.
It's just that I will not expect anything from you. You have already told me beforehand, not to expect anything from you and you are not answerable.
But yes, atleast I could sit back and face my soul saying that, yes , I tried. I was honest. My love for you is also true. And I won't hold you back. You were free, you will be free.
It's just that I will slowly give up expecting any reciprocation from you.
Take care Love.
Wish I could hug you tight.
Yes I am crying writing this.
I love you so much.
Sorry if I have ever hurt you.

Best wishes for your upcoming new journey.