Dear Future Lover

Dear future lover if you love me please prepare yourself to get stab on all parts of your of body because loving me feels more than getting stab over and over again.

If you love me then tell me and unleash all your secrets to me. I want to know every ounce of you and do everything you can to gain my trust. My trust is worthy more than my pride and to tell you i’m not like anybody else. Some may still trust their partner after all the cheating and lies they told but I’m not like them- Lie and you will hardly earn it again or worse I will never trust you again.

I am fragile in all ways from touching me to showering me with your words. I’m expecting a warm and gentle hand to hold mine through trials in life and warm arms to comfort me during my downfall moments. Mostly, when I say I love you all of my words will matter and so as yours. People may talk shit to me but when I love you, I love you because I trust you to never talk shit with me.

I do not like surprises, I never like it. Never impress me with your materials, I can by myself those. I want you to surprise me with your presence and amaze me with the love you can give me. If you think you can get me to say yes by impressing me with balloons and whatever’s then pack your bags hun you can never score a shot of date with me.

If you love me, then tell me when you finally realize it is real. Please, do not waste my precious time, I do not need some ugly games with you. If you wanna play me then prepare yourself because the game will not yet start and you will lose already.  You have no idea how good I am playing with people’s feelings so please don’t try and treat me like a fool like how you treat your previous girl friends.

I will demand all of your attention, love and care. Yes, I am that needy.

Teach me how to love, teach me to see things better during worse times, teach me how to appreciate every tiny thing and teach me how to love myself. Loving me isn’t just showing me your affection but if you love me, truly love me then you will accept me as who I am.

If we were made to love each then we are meant to be together. Everything we’ll go through will be nothing and it won’t affect us.

I’m the definition of complication. I’ll be the worse of the worse sometimes but mostly I am the best of the best. I’m  too complicated to handle and to tolerate