Don't love me

Don't make me feel special.I don't deserve your love because I can never return you the same.I know you never expect anything but my happiness,but I cannot even give you that.I cannot forget him.Trust me,I try,but in vain.

Don't make me your priority.I will disappoint you,because neither can I pretend love,nor love you for real.I'm tired of lying to you that I'm happy,just to make you smile.

Your love makes me feel guilty,your efforts to make me happy without expecting a jot of love from me,makes me feel I'm doing you wrong.The thought that I might be using you suffocates me.

I apologise for making you feel worthless,for making your efforts,to help me forget him,go in vain,but I'll tell you it's not about you,you are probably the best person I ever met.It's my fault that I can't forget him.Trying to forget him makes it even worse.

Don't love me.I will never be able to forgive myself.