Friendship vs Love

I love you more than him,but there is a stark difference in their kinds.I can't do you wrong by lying that I love you the way you love me.Please forgive me.

You know me from the very roots of my hairs to the tips of my toe nails.No,I never used you to get myself through the tough times.It's not a feebly tied knot of gratefulness between us.Even if you never had my back,I would befriend you the same,because I see myself in you,my best friend.

Please don't block me.I know you might want to forget me,like they say,friendships get destroyed as soon as feelings creep in.I'm afraid I just can't afford to lose you.I need you.You are my strength.I promise I'll never text you,I'll block you from my status so that you can't see my pictures with him,I'll try to lessen your hiccups by remembering you less.Don't snap all strings of the web of friendship we have woven over the years with our time,efforts and memories put together.Don't get me replaced.I'm afraid one night,when I'm drunk and all alone,lying frustrated on my bed,I'll need to call you and scream my lungs out.I'll need your voice to calm me down and bring me back to life,the way you have been doing for the past years.

I promise never to change,even though I know things will not be the same between us after this,but whenever you are in need,be it a shoulder to cry on or to jump together out of happiness at your first salary,I'll always be there for you because dude,I can undoubtedly say,I know you more than you know yourself.From failing together in exams,eating whole of my tiffin,bunking tuitions,keeping secrets safe,whole night calls,holding hands at the horror movie theatre,birthday surprises,stalking random girls,reminding me to take medicines on time,to "I love you,and you love him",I'll remember every fraction of seconds spent with you.

The only guilt I'll always have is over the years of our friendship you asked nothing of me,but when you did,you asked for something that I had already given to someone else.

Don't remember me with hatred,because I believe our memories are worth reliving.Lastly,a cliche-"You deserve someone a lot better than me",but I know no one can ever love you more than I do.I want to see your dreams change to reality.Your win is my win,your happiness is my happiness.