Forever wasn't meant for Us

It all started that faithful day when you've confessed to me that you love me.
With the words you spoke I felt honesty and sincerity.
You looked at me with eyes that sparkles.
You smile at me as wide as the flowery fields.
You told me words as sweet as sugar coated candies,
And held my hand with protection and care,
Like an angel sent to protect my welfare.
You showed me efforts and efforts.
You proved the words you spoke with actions.
With everything you did,
I couldn't help but flatter
And unknowingly I fell for you,
And the thought of breaking my heart didn't even matter.

You were so happy when I told you I loved you too.
You were so glad that everything you've been through, got me and you.
You promised to make me laugh.
You promised to never make me cry.
You promised that it woukd be forever you and I.

As days went by, your love never died.
Your endless efforts to make me smile never ended.
The cheesy lines you say never failed to make my heart flatter.
You showed me love, forever I will remember.
It was you and me against the world.
We fought for our love, through thick and thin.
Everything we had was merely like a dream.
A dream everyone would want to dream.
A dream we never want to wake up to.
A life of a perfect me and you.

But just like other relationships,
Our love has been tested.
Quarrrels and misunderstanding came,
Bitter words and Scars remained.

You told me breaking up will be never our option,
Despite the fights and the commotion.
You told me you were sorry,
I told you I was too.
I was so happy that we have withstand all taht we've been through.

We were happy again,
Just like nothing happened.
The pain was forgotten,
And our love strengthen.

But these happy moments once again came to an end.

It was during the our first days in the University.
You're sweet words suddenly became bitter.
You're warm touch suddenly became cold.
You're eyes no longer sparkle.
You're efforts no longer showed.
I became confused and wondered.
What had happen to my lover.

And in that faithful day, when the sky was gloomy and the weather was bad.
My world of happiness ended.
You told me you no longer have feelings for me.
That you're love suddenly faded.
And that me and you is not fated.

I was hurt and devastated,
Confused and broken hearted.
I didn't know what I did wrong,
When loving you was all I did all a long.
I cried and begged.
Begged for you to take back your words.
To tell me that it was just a joke.
Begged for you to never leave me.
To stay with me just like you told me so.
Begged for you to stay and love me.
Just like you promised to do so.
But you left.
You left me broken and hurt.
Devastated and Eyes filled with tears.

Days passed by I didn't know what to do,
How could I live my life when you - my life, went away ?
How would I smile again, when the reason is no where in sight ?
How could I be happy, when I no longer have you ?
What have I done wrong ?
Was I not enough ?
Was I not worth of an explanation ?
Was I not worthy of love ?
Could I even move on ?

All these questions came to me mind,
No answers I could even phatom.
It was driving me crazy,
All these pains and sorrows.
I cried a lot until my eyes couldn't bare.
All I could do was look at the wall and stare.

Until one day I saw you with another girl,
It was your new classmate, the girl you've mentioned to me before.
You were both so happy.
She was clinging to you,
her arms around your arms.
Our eyes met, and we stared for not so long
But the painful part was you acted like you haven't seen me at all.

So that was the reason you're love faded.
That was the reason why I was so devastated.
I was so angry that all I could do was cry.
My hearts broken pieces shattered even more.
And all I could do is cry and nothing more.

You told me you love,
You told me we were for keeps,
You told me it was me and you forever,
You told me we will always be together,
But you left me with your promises,
Shattered and forgotten.
But i love you still,
I love you still even though it hurts so bad.
I love you still even though you left me sad.
I love you still and I wish you happiness,
Even if that happiness causes me sadness.
You will forever be my love,
Even if forever wasn't meant for us.