Guard your mind

Sometimes, you don't need to pass several years to understand what life really is all about. Our lives can change this very moment with a sudden change in our not so idealistic living. Living far away from my family from the past few years has taught me several things about people we cross paths with, situations that force us to buckle up, and at the most- about myself. It's not just cooking and paying bills that one needs to worry about. It's the responsibility which most of us ought to feel, knowing that we are no longer answerable to anyone but ourselves.

Lately, I have been able to live with the optimism I never thought existed in me. I was constantly cursing, complaining about the incidents that cannot be altered, and found myself reliving these unpleasant feelings and situations a thousand times in my head, that I knew did no good, but which still robbed me off the peace, focus, and opportunities I'd have had if only I could direct myself back into the present reality. Maybe this living-in-a-loop is probably what we call "hell" in the afterlife? I'm not sure if that could be any different from living in one's guilt, regret, fear and lack of control that can drive anybody off their lives. Well, that's what we do to ourselves living in the past, reimagining how things could have turned out differently with a slight change that we could have brought about. But how is it helping really? It took me a very long while to understand that this was not getting any better. The only thing I could do is to analyse for once and take note of the things which needed to be dealt with experience that I now have. Only if it was that simple. Ofcourse, I would not want to lead a tormented life. Even though I have no explanation for what I see in my dreams, I do know there is a void, which I had assumed would get filled by time and surrounding myself with people that are valuable around me. Some things are not meant to be reversed, only permanently changed for the rest of your life. Maybe that's how life is supposed to work. To find a way to live in peace even after unplanned and unimagined situations. It is like an ocean that can probably never be measured or understood fully. The turbulences are meant to prepare you for everything that is to come as you sail.

As I write this, I say it to myself too- take time to accept, understand, and embrace the changes as you walk on the path chosen by you. You are a powerhouse, (you could even ask the mitochondria in each cell of your body ;) ) you have everything that it takes to live through any turbulence. Believe me, you are prepared. Do not let yourself be told otherwise. Do not be disheartened by the failures,   you will know the true meaning of success only after learning from the journey. Limit yourself from trying to undo what can't be undone. Rather, channelise this as your skills for the short term goal you have been planning out. Allow no longer the self doubts to creep in your mind and disturb this harmony. Do not let the negative thoughts dominate your consciousness- guard the gate to your mind. Try to see meaning in the unfairness of life itself. 

TRY. PERIOD.