happier

perhaps, you've been wondering how I'm doing

in the disgusting taste of bitterness

and the jealous mind

yes, I'm doing good

for I must bare the pain you gave

but I,

don't want to accept

the sorrows, the mourns, the scars

and all the lies

I am now immune in the battlefield

where the battle of love exists

but can't be swayed

for I have been fighting a lot- from myself

whether to stay and wait or

accept that you will not come again;

but

if you see me again,

please don't walk if you,

yes you 

can't love me anymore

I remember the night

when the stars form

and the cool wind hugs

as we dance to the cries

and played the music of good byes

knowing it will be the last

'til my hand slipped in yours

in one moment, you are gone

I miss you fool, oh how fool I am

craving for your tangled hair

where I got lost--

for I tried to  figure out what's on your mind;

and the ocean of your eyes

where I once drown--

trying to swim the depth of your soul

maybe wish do come true

this time, I gotta say- 'happier'

to myself; and

happiest to myself after this; for

in this tiny world with roaring fields

and love birds 

I think,

for once,

I want to be happy too