HEY YOU! I LOVED YOU

"SHE'S ALMOST GOT YOU WHILE I'M ALREADY LOSING YOU"

I was so afraid of that one thing to happen, and of course! I always feel so unlucky especially now, because I already am losing you. Here's what I want you to know, I hate you so much! because you made me dependent of your love! My happiness always depended on your presence because I always thought that you were right for me, that you truly inspired me to be something better than what I am right now, but no, you made me someone who was afraid to be left by you, you made someone so crazy about you. I have a question, Isn't love supposed to bring out the best in you? Isn't it supposed to be something that will TRULY make you happy, and if he really loved me, don't you think he should teach me to be stronger and independent? aren't we supposed to bring out the best out of each other? How come we turned out to be the worst of ourselves whenever we're together? Was I the one who made the mistake? Didn't I held on tight enough for us to get by all the struggles we faced together?

Hey you! I loved you, even if I knew from the start that your feelings for me wasn't enough to build a relationship that's more than just friendship, yet I was dumb enough to fall for ocean blue, angelic eyes--DAMN! you will get me with those. You promised me! that you would stay and that you wouldn't choose to hurt me no matter what, well guess what? I woke up from those empty promises! I realized that you're not in love when you're not ready to face and feel those pain, when you're not ready to sacrifice for that person. 

Hey! I want you to know that even if you've moved on and soon I will too, but I admit, my life wouldn't be the same without you. I wouldn't want to say it would all be gray and sad, but hey! I'm trying to move on here so stop doing things that would make me love you more.

Ugh! It feels like such a crime to love you, because you belong to someone else now, someone better than me, someone you can imagine your life with. I hope you're enjoying your life with her company, and please, don't hurt her like you did to me, don't make her fall for your tricks and empty promises, be the right man now, be that man who can make a woman's life better. 

I hope now you will learn to support her like you never did to me. I hope you listen to her non-sense talks about her problems and complains, unlike us before. I hope you treat her well with respect, trust and love, don't make the same mistake that made us give up on each other. Actually I don't think I ever gave up on you, maybe I was an instrument for you to learn how to cherish relationships like this, or maybe I was really meant to leave you so you could meet your soul mate right on time. I hope that you keep her strong and happy because that's what you never gave me when I really needed you, comfort her with all your singing, guitar, cuddles and kisses and those sweet and thoughtful words that I've been dreaming of you to say to me, but you never did.

Don't worry, I have already forgiven you, how couldn't I, I'm still in love with you, madly in love with you. I am sorry if you think I left you because you weren't worthy of me, I left you because I feel like I've done so much already that I need to see if you would really fight for me, but you see, you never did, you just really let me go and went on with another girl, but it's okay, thank you actually because you made me realize you really aren't the guy for me, I deserve someone better, someone who would always run and get me back whenever I try to just go and give up. You saved me from a life full of failed expectations, a life that could make me more depressed, something that would really kill me. I hope you guys are happy together. 

Hey you! even if I LOVED you, I will always LOVE you, maybe love you differently only, because you will always own a part of me in my heart because of course, you're one of the reasons why I am who I am now. 

I hope you're a better guy now, In fact, I hope you're a MAN now.