i love u but forgive me

When i first saw u 

I never thought 

That you would become so important to me at some point 

That we would be so close

That i would fall for you......so hard

And when i fell

I never thought

That you would love me back 

That you would get over her 

That you would make me feel so special 

And then when we were together 

I never thought

That i would hurt u

That I'll have to leave u

That i would do the same that she did

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I know you will hate me 

Maybe you'll think that everyone is the same 

It makes me sad that I'll have to be the reason for that

But this is something i never wished for and i just didn't have a choice 

Maybe i did but

To choose between the two of u 

The people i love the most 

But then i choose her over you

I know i am breaking the promises i made to you....

But I'll have to keep this one i made to her 

I know this is gonna hurt you......a lot 

But she's family 

The person i have to live with for many years more 

The person who i have been with my whole life

She's my sister :(

Maybe others would choose love before the sisterbond 

But m just not able to do that 

I am sad that i can't even tell you the reason and let you go 

And you may keep trying to find answers for long....

Someday just someday you will know...!!