It's not easy to love me

It's not easy to love me. I am flawed and full of scars. I make lots of mistakes and stupid decisions in life.I may not always listen to you.  I may hurt you at times and break u at times. I may just leave sometimes but still come running back to you. I know I am just too much to handle for you . I scream and yell and cry at times. I screw up a lot and I don't even know how to make things right. I am not a perfect person. I know I am annoying and you may get tired of me at times. But don't give up on me, I'll try to be better. I am childish and I do silliest of things. You may not like me at times. I can be rude, I can burst out in anger. I'll call u things and say hurtful words  but when I realize it its too late to take it back. I don't intend to hurt you but somehow I always manage to do that . I am stubborn and I sometimes won't admit my mistakes. I am not always on my best behavior. I am messy I might not always show up looking pretty. I am not the kind of girl that a guy would dream of but I don't know why you still fell in love with me. I know I can't make you laugh or smile. I am not a perfect lover. I am the kind that you wouldn't wanna be with but something you can't seem to let go off . I am not good with apologies and I am not good with lying . I may not be the best person to fall in love with but when I love you I give it my all.