I Miss You..

Hi there..!!You can see me,right??You can even feel everything I have been going through..How can you not!!You had always been the supporting pillar to my falling morale..Everytime..And still are..Its different now..I can no longer see you around me,jump to your adjacent bed and sleep peacefully without any tension and stress..I miss you,grandpa..I miss you a lot..Its gonna be 8 years this July..Had you been with there with me,things wouldn't have been this complex..As always,I would have told you what's cooking and you would have solved it as always..It hurts deeply from inside at times,for I wasn't raised as per the society..I was raised as MY GRANDPA'S LI'L PRINCESS..I want to stay that way,no matter what the society says..Sometimes,I just feel like no one understands what's going inside the li'l head of mine and what I feel inside the big heart of mine..I am scared-of loosing people,of letting them go..I want them to stay..But then again,family and society comes in mid..Why couldn't everyone have the kind of upbringing that I had!!Modern yet Traditional..Upbringing that gives me the confidence of trusting people..Upbringing that gave me the strength of believing..Upbringing that taught me never ever to stop believing in the power of Love..Why can't everyone have an upbringing that makes them fearless and independent!! I know the answer to this question yet I keep asking it over and over again..Because everyone isn't this blessed to have a family like I have nor are they this lucky to have a grandpa like you.. You and I, we both know this quite well that had you been around,I would have opened up to you and bammm..!!Problem solved..But now that I don't have you around,I know I am supposed to deal it myself..

It's hard but not impossible..That's what my Babaji and my family taught me..!! :-)