I'd keep this to myself

I don’t know why I’m feeling this way. All of a sudden, my mood changed. I could feel my heart is breaking second by second and I don’t understand why. Is it because I am missing you? I feel like we haven’t talked for long. I mean, really talk like how we used to way back when we’re still confuse of what we are to each other. Did the label changed everything? I hope it didn’t.

As I go back to our old conversations and routine, I could realize how much we've changed. Our time became limited. I don’t know if it’s just me being such an over thinker but why do I feel something wrong? Am I just being paranoid again? Or is there really something that I should know? I’m afraid to ask you what is happening because it might cause something that will hurt us more and I’m also scared of what you might say so I guess, I’m just gonna keep my mouth shut and save it to myself. I’d cry to myself and maybe this will work. For now. A night of crying could somehow lessen this pain so I know for sure tomorrow will be a bright sunny day. I hope. As long as I could bear this, I’d try not to talk about this. As long as I could, I’d keep this to myself.