I'm sorry Maa...

I'm sorry Maa...I know I didn't live up to your expectations.I just want to tell you that I tried my best.This is who I am.I know you expect much more from me and lately I gave you no reason to be proud of me .But what do I do Maa,I just don't understand.Things have changed now.You have changed.

I miss you Maa.I miss my old Maa,with whom I used to share everything.I miss my old friend.I miss your laugh Maa.Lately you look  angry all the time.I see you get annoyed at those little things which didn't even matter to you before.You look sad all the time.I can see you are not happy.

Yesterday you were so angry at me, you said I let you down.You said I acted like an idiot.I know Maa you didn't mean it.But it hurt me so much Maa.I started thinking may be I'm an idiot.When I went back to school next day and teacher asked me a question,I wanted to give answer,I mean ,I knew answer, but, I thought what if I'm wrong then whole class will think I'm an idiot.I lost it there Maa.I lost all my confidence then and there .I lost it  when you called me an idiot Maa. I lost it when you stopped believing in me .Things changed after that.Everything changed .Im not that kid anymore .I'm not the one who makes you proud Maa.

I want to tell you that I did try.But what do I do Maa,I just don't get it...everything looks so complicated.I'm scared Maa.I'm scared all the time.I'm scared of you.You were my best friend and now I'm scared to talk to you.I'm so lonely maa.I lost my buddy,i lost my confidence,I lost everything maa.I can't take it anymore.Please Maa,please help me .I want to come back to you,I don't want to loose you but I'm scared.I'm scared you will be disappointed in me again.Im scared you will think I'm no good again.

What do I do Maa?

Please help me Maa!

Please listen to me once again.

Please be my buddy again.

I'm sure things will change,for I know you love me Maa.

I know you do,

no matter how much I dissappoint you,

But you are the only one who understands me,

You were the only one who was always proud of me.

I know you love me Maa,I know you always did,and you always will....