OPEN YOUR EYES DUMBASS

I was born in love without marriage,

Born and known as a stupid accident.

All thought my existence is shameful and a sin.

That made me wonder if I should exist in this world.

Now that I am 18, I question my existence

I can't handle it anymore

My sanity has become lost because of this stupid regretful lovers

I was a child and have beared the tremendous trauma

Of Love and see it as a dangerous, useless, and bothersome to encounter in life

Ever since when I saw my parents fight every day

I always know that every Disney princess film 

Will end their relationship once they fight and get bored with each other

I am different from all girls that exist that have infatuated by boys.

But I never have any ever since

I hate  it when my friends talk about that topic about their crush

I want to discourage them but I can't because we have different beliefs and life

So I just supported even though they don't end up together

I have no heart and never believe in Love 

Love is just a word to make you feel special

Don't believe in that foolish propaganda

I already opened my eyes ever since 5

And pretend that I don't have ears 

hearing cats and dogs bark outside

I wish I was born deaf

She married a man without riches but has a good personality

After she married him, she blames that her life is poor

You vowed after you married him

Maybe you are forced to marry because I was born?

Maybe if I was not born, she would stop complaining

Her voice makes me want myself to be deaf and mute at the same time

A woman I consider a magnet of problems

There is no day she creates a problem

I always stop her and she always says she most protect her pride 

Pride or your child's mentality?

I am already embarrassed because of you

I can't even look you straight in the eye

My sanity is already lost because of her

The man a good man

Always like to make people laugh

Who also loves his friends a lot

Is sad and silent because of what he lacks

He is poor and clingy to that woman's family because she is rich

Rich that meant supported by siblings

I hate him

I hate him ever since I was 9

Those previous years when I was young i was blind to notice what he truly is

A despicable and uncaring man

The time when I was with him, He left me because he wants to meet with a friend

After hours of waiting for him to come back, he never came

This is where I REALIZE his obsession with his friends

He prioritizes his friends than the child he left in the park.

This where my hatred of men started.

Seeing a male makes me remember that traumatic experience I have in the park

They leave you and never take responsibility

They always go to where they seem happy 

And I see myself as the thing that never makes him happy.

I cried and cried until I have become a vicious and merciless monster

I have an imperfect childhood

The purpose of my existence is their Life Insurance

I'm just an account that they invest

A piggy bank to exact.

Never expect love is real

It has never been in the first place

And I already seen reality and you should do the same