SAD

There is something I really dislike in my life right now and that is whenever I put myself first which rarely happens. I don't know why I dislike such behavior but the happiness of my persons mean more to me than my own.

Maybe I am barking up the wrong tree. Maybe I should be putting myself first at times cause it's my life I am leading but, maybe I was born to put people first after all.

I am afraid. I am scared of being alone and feeling alone and that's what I have been feeling these days, weeks, months. I feel alone in life and I have no idea how to cope because SAD is crawling back onto me after three long years.

I am slowly beginning to think I am being a burden and it scares the hell out of me.

I am drowning.