Secret Playground

      We are all have different memories in life, memories of happy moments with our family, memories of happy moments of our friends, memories of sad moments in our life such as breaking our hearts by someone we love most but all of these are memories are to reminisce. From these, we learned a lot, but why we don’t we reminisce during our childhood days? Is my Childhood memorable? Is it fun or a challenging one? What are those memories that I can steel remember.                 As I grew up I experienced a lot, I experienced on how to interact with other child, on how to play in our backyard with my brother, cousins and friends. Bully other child and I also experienced how other child bullies me. And all of these are become memories in life not just memories that can be reminiscing.
   Here are my childhood memories. Falling asleep on the couch and working up in bed thinking… “Wow I can teleport.” When I was young I’d put my arms in my shirt and told people that I lost my hand. I would restart the video game whenever I knew I was getting to lose. I would sleep with all the stuffed animals so none of them would not get offend. I had that one pen with 6 colors and tried to push all the buttons at once. I used to think that the moon followed me. I used to swallow fruit seeds and get scared to death that a tree was going to grow in my tummy. I ride at the back of my father while his acting like a horse. But the most unforgettable memory in my childhood is when all the people in our street is gossiping me.
  It feel so nice, so cool in body, I know I’m young to do this I know this is wrong but what I can do this is my hobby. In first I want to stop it because I know this is wrong but I don’t know, I can’t because I feel better and happy when I do that thing. I know this is not appropriate in my age not like the other child they play all day and even night only but me I have another playground in back of our house. I’m the only one who know that playground If I’m done playing with my friends it’s time to go in my secret playground to do what is the thing that be able to complete my day. I didn’t let my days done that I will not go to my playground. Because this the only one that I can do what I want, no more rules, just play and play and play a play that I can do I my age even its not appropriate but who cares they didn’t see I will continue his I’ve said.
  One day I went to my secret playground to play, not an ordinary play, I’m in the most enjoyable part of the play but I feel there is someone watching me and I suddenly surprised because my grandmother watching me ‘what the hell, why did you do that” she said. I really don’t know what to do so I decided to run go out there because its embracing, I’m running don't know where I going and I’m holding my effrontery without self-awareness just run and run and run until no one can see me. Then after 30 minutes I go back home to faced them and explain.
      I’m nervous, I’m ashamed, I don’t know what I say, I don’t know if I can confront them… Why? Why? Ryan Why? My dad said. I just zip my mouth and stoop. How many times did you do that?, then I started to cry because I’m ashamed, you’re too young to do that, you’re too much young, you know what you’re discreditable and immoral.
      The news was spread, they know what I do when I’m in my secret playground, and I feel my head is getting erupted in the words that I hear when I go outside of our house, their all eyes on me and when they open their mouth the words that stocked in my head are “scandalous”, “devilment”, “immoral” that is the words that I always hear and I feel I’m the front page of the newspaper. I started to lose a confidence in myself, I’m scared interacting other people I just want to be alone, I want to imbed myself in ground with the disgrace that I do.
      But there’s someone motivated me again. None other than my mother, she’s always there to comfort me and she said that anyone can do sin even its severe or not but the important is you learned about it and you need to repent and don’t do the thing that you know it will ashamed you.
I learned a lot in my childhood memories and I don’t want to forget it because in that memories that is the reason what I am and who I am today and I believe everything happens for a reason and that is my destiny. But I realize don’t do the thing if it’s not appropriate to you because you will repent in the end. And no secrets that you can keep in a long period of time especially if it’s wrong. Sorry if I confuse you because I want to preserve my privacy.