Signs And Symbols

We teenagers are often surrounded by adults most of the time. Our parents, teachers, relatives and even housekeepers are all adults. We see the transperancy of their lives, their struggle and even their happiness. We see their course of life, their work and their accomplishments. We see what many see and ignore what many may. 

At some stage, we become mature enough to realise what we want from our life. A state college or an Ivy League. A boring job or an entrepreneurship. A settled life or a hippie one. We begin to know what exactly future may hold for us and we often see the signs for it way before hand. Ignorance is the only thing that can leave you in the dark.

But from what is going on right now in my life, I feel that there are some things that I'd rather not have in my life at all. Some carriers are like poisons inside you, just waiting to be released. Its inevitable, one way or the other. I try to avoid the very life like signal and sign I get. But even now I know that it is unpreventable. 

I wish there was some way to ignore the signs, to not know the doomed future that I have, to be sure that all is going to well now, but in a way I know that it isn't possible at all. What you reap is what you sow. So I guess this is the punishment that I get to bear. Karma is just doing its job. And this time, I am at the recieving end of it.