Starting life

I'm lucky to want to be balanced in giving and taking. There was a time when I willingly gave away more than I took, and it was not the wisest time in my life. What I want from my life is peace and calm - more than anything. The preceding years could have been no less chaotic than they were. I would suffer conflicting thoughts, contrasting points of view, and mutually revolting values - always caught up in this suffering. I would never know what to do, till I HAD to do something, and that was a disaster. But it's almost silly how one can survive a catastrophe. Feels silly, but is a work of good luck if one would ask.

One thing that supports me, just like a rigid wall, is that, there's no requirement for any reason, if you want to do something good. No particular reason is required, to follow a good and healthy routine. With an intention of not going too far with the philosophy, I want to stress, that to participate in life and be conscious, one does not need any reason. To survive, a reason is not required. Same goes for living too.

I have come to realise how easy it is to be at the receiving end of care, and how difficult it is to be the giver of the same. I now realise how difficult it was for my parents to do it for me, irrespective of my outlook and help.

It takes a long time and a lot of effort, and love, to overcome the loss of life, the catastrophe. I'm more than glad to have crossed that mountain - I'm alive!

And so, now I realise the importance of being balanced.

On this note, I pray for all those stuck souls who are hopeful amidst troubled times, and look forward to my new life ahead!