Sunflowers sway

Some say that sunflowers
Are the reflection of greed
They turn to who
Give them light
But I say that
They bend however
You want them to!

It is all about perspectives
You see me as broken
When I feel I am completely full
You see the marks on my skin
You declare me suicidal
But would the wounds not show my pleasure!?

I have issues with commitment
I can not stay put at one place
I like to move, I like to bend
I am a paradox, I know
But can't you just stay put
Give me a minute and
Not try to decipher me!?

I do not ask for you to move away
I ask for you to close your arms around me
Before you try to open my eyes to see you!
I like to stay in my little space
It keeps me happy, this bubble.
I know it will burst
And when it does, be there
Be there, not to dry my tears
But to just hold me!

I have not ever had anyone close
I have always been the second best
I have issues you won't understand
May be because I do not tell
But also because I do not want to
The fear of losing you
To see what is beneath this skin
To peel off the pretty layer
And peep inside the dark!

I think you will want to leave
And i would not be able to let go!

So, dear image in the mirror,
Hold me tight before the floodgates open
Drop by drop, I will let all go,
And submerge in the cold water
Not feeling, not hidden, not breathing,
Hold me tight, I need to rediscover
I need to love, I need to be
I need to be me!

Yours truly
*S*