The Fun of Letting You Go

It's been a rough road.

Things got funny and  complicated
The old me learned to embrace
the person whom my heart command me to be
How my heart taught me to accept this new me.

Funny how things had gone in a miserable way
That halfheartedly,  I decided to let you go
I have to pass the night and meet the new day
Without the person who taught me how to sleep alone.

Funny how good I was saying I would stay
I admit , all blame must be on me
I was the one who used to promise ,and hey!
I was also the one who had took the farewell

Funny how i learned to swallow my own oath
Where i have to look at myself from head to toe
Then realize that I have all the things to regret
I had to write down my mistake, but then again repeat

Funny how i always think twice for the choices I take
But eventually end up with my own disappointment
Choosing always the wrong one or if not,
Making the right one wrong

Funny now that I have to write this with tears
Funny how this words emerge from my finger tips
How do i get the courage to write but never to confront
How did i get that fear to stay with the person I dream of

Funny how I gave myself my own type of cold
That feeling of incompleteness i always feel
I crave now for a hug from the person i'd let go
No more warmth or heat, just this freezing me

Funny how I lost myself and how far you went.