The Place I Never Want To Be Stuck In

Someone asked me once, “What’s that one place you never want to be stuck in?” I would’ve answered something like Gobi Desert if that was before, but looking at you now, my answer would be two simple words – friend zone.

The moment I saw you, I knew I was never going to fall for you. Don’t get me wrong here you’re a nice guy – too nice to be exact. You’re one of those guys – the kind and smart one who has a bright future ahead of them. Everyone likes you but me. For some strange and unknown reason, you annoy the heck out of me.

And if you’re wondering how did we end up being friends, that’s what I wanted to know too. There wasn’t a single day that we weren’t arguing. We both didn’t want to lose in our banters that it became amusing and tiring at the same time. But let me tell you something, I enjoyed them and miss every single moment of it.

How long has it been? Four years? We’ve been friends for that long, that I was able to know you. My opinion about you has changed over time. You’re not annoying anymore; you became super annoying and egotistical. Kidding! You’re my first close guy friend and I didn’t even imagined I’d have one. Thank you for being a nice friend even if I wasn’t. There were times when I ignored you and acted as if we’re strangers. And I don’t have anything to say about it except I have these reasons I cannot tell you. So I’m sorry for the nth time! I mean it.

But hey! I wasn’t that bad for a friend, right? I was always there to listen to your dramas.

But sometimes, I wish you didn’t tell me everything about your feelings for her. You could’ve left out the part about your regrets and how you wanted her back months after you ended things with her. It made me realize something I shouldn’t have. It made me aware of my feelings. I was wrong when I thought I wouldn’t fall for you. I like you and it hurts until now.

Are you aware of that? If yes, then can you answer this: The place I never want to be stuck in, have I always been there? Oh wait! On second thought, don’t answer that. I already know the answer. It’s okay.

I guess it’s not so bad out here. This place isn’t as cold and dark as I thought it would be. Sure, it’s painted in black in white but it has its colours sometimes. And if you’re thinking that I’d be stuck here forever, think again. I’ll find my way out sooner.

I’m glad to see you slowly moving on so keep moving forward; I will too. So be happy even if things turned out this way. Always remember that life goes on – for both of us.