To You

Love at first sight. I have read about it in books and watched it from movies countless of time but I have never believed in it. I have dreaded that idea from the very beginning. It's plain stupidity. How can someone fall in love with just one look?

But that all changed one boring day.

It was during my first year in college.

My friend was pointing in your direction and was trying to get my attention, saying you're the older brother of her crush that time. I wasn't planning to look at you because I wasn't really interested, but since my friend insisted, I did.

That time, I followed you with my eyes until you disappeared from our line of sight and I don't know why.

For me, you're a typical guy and yet you aren't. There's something in you that captured my attention. You're like a mystery I can't solve.

But it wasn't love at first sight, I was sure of it. It was just plain curiosity. But I do know that some things are going to change that time. And I was right.

Since then, I always see you pass by even without meaning to. Is it fate or pure coincidence? It's funny because I don't really believe in one and yet here I am. And that only made my curiosity about you grew further.

I don't know you and you don't know me either. I'm sure I'm just one of the faces you see around the campus. But for me you aren't.

Yes, I developed a crush on you. But it wasn't intense that time. Not yet, until you helped me one day. You're not just smart, tall, dark and handsome with the #kilayislife. You're a gentleman and it's very rare to find someone like you nowadays.

So I continued watching you from afar, admiring you from a distance even though you're one year older than me. Seeing your smile makes my day even if I know it wasn't meant for me. Cliché as it may sound but hearing your voice and your laughter is like music to my ears. I was contented just by seeing you in the hallways.

And during those times when our paths cross and our eyes meet, I was always the first one to look away.

You don't know how hard I try to stay calm whenever that happens. But sometimes, I feel a little braver and let my stare linger a little longer, not minding the aching feeling and throbbing in my chest.

How I wish you knew how I felt for you. But you didn't because I never had the guts to tell you.

And now, after more than 3 years of admiring you from a distance, I'm finally saying goodbye to you. It hurts just by thinking that I'll never hear your voice nor see you in these hallways but I guess all good things must come to an end. There's a whole new world waiting for you and soon there's one for me too.

Thank you for everything. Good luck in your journey. I know you'll achieve your dreams soon.