To Mr. I-Thought-Mine

It hurts to see you with her.
It hurts to hear you laughing with her.
It hurts to know that you’re giving your best to love her in every kind of way.
And though how it kills me,
I pray that may all the love in the world be pour out into both of you.
I love you and your happiness matters to me.
You showed me that she is the other half of your world and who am I to grab the crown from her?
I’m just someone who’s always available whenever you want someone to talk to.
I’m just someone who would do everything to make you happy.
The one you can never love in return. And always will be at the bottom of your everything.
Clear as day, you don’t belong with me.
I love you as how much you love her.
For so many years,
I fooled myself in believing that maybe one day,
Tables would turn around
You’re going to love me back
You’re going to make me feel that I was not just someone, but “the one”
I kept on waiting for that fairytale moment
But nothing has changed.
I will never be your Queen.
I love you but I feel that it’s not worth it anymore.
Why it have to be like this?
Why it has to emotionally kill me?
Why I have to suffer in loving so much?
All these whys, why?
I wish you could tell me the answer
Without hurting my feelings
Over again and again...