To my first love

To my first love,

To the man I loved first, thank you for every memories that we shared. For every good times that brought smile and laughter in both of us. That brought happiness which made us both stay beside each other and also for the bad times that brought us pain and tears. The bad times that made us fight for the happy ever after we once dream to have. The bad times that made us stronger in every trials we faced. 

Thank you for fighting with me. For swallowing your pride to make peace with me. For being the first person to accept my annoying attitude. Thank you for being the first one to be scared of losing me. For being the first one to try taking care of my heart. Thank you for being the first one who taught me how it feels to fall in love. For being the first one who showed me love. Thank you for loving me.

What we had is something I would always cherish because it was a mixture of bittersweet moments. You were that first person who gave me butterflies. The first one who saw me at my worst but still thinks I'm the best. The first one who made me feel beautiful. The first one who learned how flowers could bring me joy. I thank you for being those firsts. For being the first one to give me every imperfect and yet worth looking back memories.

I am sure we loved each other, enough for us to still try no matter how painful it gets. We loved each other enough to take every chances we could have. Thank you for not giving up on trying but I guess, our story is one of those that we couldn't force to have a happy ever after and I am sorry that we had to end painfully though I believe it ended for a reason. Something we might not understand but will lead us to a better version of ourselves.

Thank you for being the first love I never expected to have. I would treasure every bit of moments with you and my heart will always be grateful that it once beat for you. 

from the girl you once loved,