What if?

For finding someone you love and leaving them is the hardest thing to do.For years and years, I have expertly bottled up all of my emotions and kept the lid on tight.But then, you came along.And little by little, you started unscrewing the lid and before I knew it, the years of bottled up emotions began to spill.In quantities unmeasurable. Drowning me in it, and the only safe shore I saw, were in your arms.
And safely there, I stayed.For quite a while.You promised me infinities of an 'us', while I showed you my scars.Lovingly, you kissed them whereas i comforted you in your insecurities.We had learnt to control our demons with each others touch.Happily we stayed, in our small island of infinity.
Alas,the tsunami of misunderstandings crept within.Naive as we were, we gave in to it.And there, our little infinity crumbled down.
And all left was one of us to walk out first.I did it.Taking with me pieces of crumbled memories, and shattered pieces of dreams.
And I wish, and wish to not have been the one to walk away first.Every single day and night, I have been fighting these new demons of 'what if's'.What if none of us walked out, we stayed and tried once more.What if one of us had foreseen the rising waves of misunderstandings amidst the calm sea of happiness.Oh why couldn't we build a fortress of trust so strong to keep out those waves of misunderstandings.For I know, we could have.We could have done all of it.Naive we might have been, but strong our souls were.Only if either of us had realised that strength.
Sitting here, alone, the waves caressing my feet, I think of all the things we could have been and all the moments we could have had all these years.For time is a healer, they say.But my wounds are still fresh.
And if I meet you again, I would definitely try, try to mend the things broken, try to undo the done.And even if I have to try tonight, I will.For you gave me something indecipherable in that little while.And I would cross every universe between us, to just go back to you.
Here's a shooting star, and I wish, with all my heart for you to forgive me.For us to have another chance at our infinity.And I wish hard.