What will my suicide note say....

I am sorry.

I quit .

What will my suicide note say? 

It's 27 th April , a month after turning 23 and being in despair , I have become a version of myself falling further and further with no hopes of getting my life back together .

What does the future hold for me anyway?Nothing around me is healing for better , nothing around me will ever be better . 

I hide within these four walls of my room trying not to kill myself everyday but now it's just unbearable for me and I can't help me anymore.All this sounds weird and ungrateful for what I have , but I don't love myself , I just can't love myself and don't see any point in continuing life .

This will crush them .

What will a less hurting suicide note sound like ? 

There should be one ,orelse there will always be that unsaid mystery to why I don't exist anymore .

There should be a piece of letter with something in it and I am trying to find those last words in that letter and it's sad that , its the only thing I can do to unkill myself. 

I thought for few days and ended up opening to close friend of mine about this sudden weird curiosity , I had about my hypothetical suicide note .He didn't judge me for thinking this way , he just told me there is no reason why something ends , for instance you love a person but one day you might not anymore and there is no reason to why we feel this way . We broke up and will never know why this happened. Closures aren't necessary.

And then ,I went into a youtube rabbit hole , and I found this amazing video -" the day after I killed myself " , it's a must watch.

Anyone reading this , should really give this a chance.

Don't give up .I am rooting for you.You are not alone.