Where did my peace go?

Where did I loose my peace of mind 

My inner chaos is keeping me bind 

Is it somewhere near the trees, 

My inner search for it making me freeze

My inner demons , satisfying other's hunger 

I lost myself when I was way too younger

My smile to adorn my broken heart

Dragging myself with my heavy guiltful cart

I keep on thinking when did I loose my peace

Which reduced me into a deteriorated piece

I might have everything today ,name wealth fame

But i wonder why do I still feel lame?

Did I loose it when I realized the world was a jungle ?;

You either conquer as a lion , or stay trapped in your minds triangle.

Did I lose it when I realized you grow up in an allusion?;

Looking around with lots of confusion.

Did I loose it when I donated my life in other's happiness?;

Leading to my shallowness and emptiness

Did I lose it while faking my identity under a mask ?;

I have become an acid which might burn the flask