Why My Feet Don't Touch The Ground

Never heard, always had to shout.
Tried everything- meditation and all types of prayer
doctors, medication- still felt like I wasn't there.
Nothing helped. Drugs, booze? All fake smiles.
Even tried cutting myself with nail-files.
Still, no one cared. So, full of despair
I gathered my will and a rope, and climbed a chair.
Tied one end to a beam, the other end a noose
tried it to make sure its as strong as it seems and not loose.
Put it around my neck and pulled it tight.
Strange how now I feel alright..
My last thoughts "I wonder if anyone will find me?"
as I tipped the chair and felt my legs kick free.
I'm not trying to plead my case
but at least I died with a smile on my face.
My beautiful spirit released in to the air,
while my invisible body just dangled there...
People wondered why there wasn't a note?
But there was you see,
the one my pain wrote.
All over the inside of me...